Here's the definition of futility: Going to Cosmic Bingo at Casino Del Sol 75% of Saturdays and never winning any cash.
I have fun when I go, and I live in an eternal world of optimism: I think that at some point, in any endeavor I engage in, I'll have a moment of triumph. Some things just take longer than others.
That thought process has worked in my career and personal relationships I also think it works for other things. In this case, bingo.
Finally, I won!
I had to share the $100 cash prize with four other people in the room but I finally won. It was like losing my virginity. I keep telling myself that anyway.
I collected my $20 cash prize and had a total moment of euphoria.
My photo of the machine when I won: